'Self-care is not a reward but rather an ultimatum.'
Lately, I commend this version of mine, doing things that I need to do independently: deciding for myself, buying groceries, budgeting, etc., neither, giving myself a break in saying 'yes' all the time; and setting boundaries.
Of course, it is hard at first, to be used to please others that I thought would make me feel wanted and belong. But it's erroneous to feel that way, coz seeking my importance from others would not make me feel at peace in gratifying my value.
Yet, there is someone who truly hears and listens attentively. There is someone who truly understands the storm inside of me.
There is someone who sees my worth more than any jewelry. There is someone who cares for my whole being. And there is someone who is not there for condemnation but one who gives unconditional love.
And I realized one thing, it's okay to be rejected by many. It's Him, whom you pleased is the only thing that matters, anyways.